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Name: Kimmi
Age: 16
School: Ohhhh! That's what it's called!
Birthday: February 24th, 1990
Status: No one's wife
-Maybe promises are better left unsaid-
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My Lovers
CC
Hunter
Kevin
*cymbal noise*
He's Very Pretty Too!
The Friend I Finally Met
El
Diana
Brian
Freddie
Behind the Camera
...Humming...
Once there was a way to get back homeward,
Once there was a way to get back home,
Sleep pretty darling, do not cry,
And I will sing a lullabye,
Golden slumbers fill your eyes,
Smiles awake you when you rise,
Sleep pretty darling do not cry,
And I will sing a lullabye,
Once there was a way to get back homeward,
Once there was a way to get back home,
Sleep pretty darling do not cry,
And I will sing a lullabye.
If you want me,
Tell me now,
If I could be of any help,
Tell me how,
Let me love you,
Like a friend,
Every little thing is gonna go right in the end.
Well I could hold you too tight,
I could never let you go,
But that wouldn't be right...
I can still recall our last summer,
I still see it all,
Walks along the sand,
Laughing in the rain,
Our last summer,
Memories that we made.
We took the chance, like we were dancing our last dance.
Living is easy with eyes closed,
Misunderstanding all you see.
You were all I never wanted anyhow,
...but I sure want you now...
You may say that I'm a dreamer,
But I'm not the only one.
You're asking me will my love grow,
I don't know, I don't know,
You stick around now it may show,
I don't know, I don't know.
I've seen that road before,
It always leads me here,
Leads me to your door.
When evening shadows and the stars appear,
And there is no one there to dry your tears,
I could hold you for a million years,
To make you feel my love.
Bright are the stars that shine,
Dark is the sky,
I know this love of mine,
Will never die.
You looked my way and said,
"You frustrate me",
Like you're thinking of lines and times,
When you and I were you and me,
I took a chance out on the street,
And I missed my chance and chances are you won't be coming back to me.
There were bells on a hill,
But I never heard them ringing,
No I never heard them at all,
Til there was you,
There were birds in the sky,
But I never saw them winging,
No I never saw them at all,
Til there was you,
And there was music,
And wonderful roses,
They had sent for me,
In sweet fragrent meddows of dawn and dew,
There was love all around,
But I never heard it singing,
No I never heard it all,
Til there was you.
The sun is up,
The sky is blue,
It's beautiful,
And so are you.
Friday, May 18, 2007
In other news: I gave blood today and *almost* passed out. It was pretty cool. People are a lot nicer to me on the days I give blood...except for Jaclyn, but that's okay. Hopefully I won't get in an accident again. *crossing fingers*
Te Amo!!
Monday, May 14, 2007
...and now it's time to say what I forgot to say...
I'm sorry for all the hurt that I'm causing you. I'm sorry that I've let you fall into something that you dan't get out of (at the moment) and I'm sorry that I can't help you. I wish I could.
You're right when you say that we've gotten close, and you're also right that I will not change the situation from what it is because of my better instincts. I am loyal and I am loving. Would you not want that in me?
But don't you ever tell me that I am using you for when I am lonely and bored. Please, I beg of you, don't even TRY to concieve that possibility.
It's not true, nor is it fair.
I have worked hard at this friendship, this bond, not because I need it...but because I want it. I don't want to spend every day at school friendless. I'm sorry if friendship is too much to ask of you. Don't you ever again question my motives for our relationship. I'll give you one reason why:
If I didn't care about you at all, I wouldn't have taken the time to write this.
Monday, May 07, 2007
So I think I found out the meaning of life: Getting through high school. Basically, if you can't do that...you're screwed for the rest of your life. Honestly, high school is easy, and as long as you push through the rough spots (that are usually full of drama)...you'll be fine. After high school comes college...or worse...your introduction into the real world. I don't know about you, but bills and taxes and mortgages freak me out. And then I think...what if I fail? What if I'm really not good enough at what I want to do, and no one has ever told me? Maybe Kay's just a liar and my friends just enjoy being supportive of a train wreck.
Who knows?
The world is a cruel, cruel place for letting humans be inquisitive...
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
I hate knowing that you loved me, and that there was nothing I could do about it.
And yes, I loved you too.
Saturday, February 17, 2007
I don't, really...
Okay, I lied.
I miss my friends. I don't get to see them every day. That's why I figure that I'm sometimes forgotten. Not in this instance...but I'm sure that if I don't have a boyfriend that goes to East, I'll just become that OHS girl again. There are few whom I know of that will just invite me to hang out even if there's not a party around. Oh yah, I'm also kinda pissed because I know that, even if I try, I won't be able to have a party for my birthday. Partly because my birthday weekend is East's winter show...but most of my friends will be gone that weekend doing something or another anyway. Oh well.
I don't want things to be like last year.
I don't want to be cooped up at a house, alone. I hate it. I mean, granted, I am doing just that every other week when I go to my dad's. That's a given. But I miss him too much all of the time, so I figure it's coop-idge well spent. I like going out and being with my friends. I want to go to a club. I want to dance all night. I want to have fun. I want a friend to come downtown with me---Naperville. It would be fun.
I want to punch Paul right now. I think he's my victim. This whole room is shaking with his crappy music. Actually, it's not crappy, I kinda like it. It's just loud. Yah...yah I want to punch him. I won't though. He's over a foot taller than me, and doesn't like me. I don't like him either. Good for nothing bum...
That was mean. I take that back.
Oh, by the way. Don't rub things in my face. Don't be thoughtless and inconsiderate enough to call me and have a million conversations with people at the things I can't make it to. Way to be a jerk.
I want to call a person or two...If only I wasn't a wuss/chicken. Oh well. One day...
Well, I feel a bit better now. I think I'm going to still wallow in self-pity for a bit. Tomorrow will be a better day. Yup.
Monday, February 12, 2007
I hope it snows like mad tonight.
I don't want to go back to school tomorrow.
It hurts knowing that there are kids who will never make it to Senior prom or graduation. It hurts watching my best friend, my close friends, and my teachers cry.
It hurts to be strong for everyone.
It hurts being strong for myself.
I keep thinking of Carl's DI. If it was god's will...I don't think I want to believe in that god.
My deepest respects and sympathies go out to all of the families.
It will all be okay in the end, I promise.
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
Don't worry about me 'cause I'm refined
Cast my line to see what's behind
Did you think you'd persuade me to let you go?
I'm tired of ranting...I'm going to write a letter...
Ever since I learned to not dwell in the past I wanted to teach. Unfortunatly, I wanted to teach laws and theories that cannot be learned in a classroom. It sounds strange, I know, but bear with me. I think it's become my goal in life to be able to teach anyone who will listen a little more about life, love, and themselves. I have no book. I have no plan. It makes no sense...it really doesn't, and I don't do it intentionally. It just happens. I guess that's what happens when I befriend people. It's...kind of a belief. I'm sorry that you were unintentionally a part of it...if that's something to be sorry for. I just...hope you learned a thing or two from me.
I hope you learned that you're not the only one with feelings. I can't ever say that enough. There are two sides to every story, every relationship, every everything. You can't go around playing with people like they were dolls, and just throw them away once they lose their glamour. You must ALWAYS treat people the way you wish to be treated, or else karma will kick your ass. It's a plain and simple truth.
I hope you learned that love is worth it. Bad experiences are supposed to help you strive for more good ones. Make sense? It doesn't even have to be love. In order to push yourself to genuinely care for another human being is a great feat. Take pride in that. Also, never EVER be afraid to speak your thoughts, wants, hopes, and dreams outloud. Sometimes it's hard, I know, but it's so worth it, trust me. Know that I am always here, if you ever need to talk to me.
Finally, I hope you learned how to love again. It hurts to let a good thing go, no matter if it was just beginning to blossom or way overdue. Pain goes hand in hand with love; it's better to know what you're getting into before you get into it. Whether I could love you or not, it doesn't matter. Just know that love is everything, even when you think it isn't anything. Love is life, and despite which way or how I mean it, I genuinely and completely love you...and that comes from the bottom of my heart.
Kim