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Name: Kimmi
Age: 16
School: Ohhhh! That's what it's called!
Birthday: February 24th, 1990
Status: No one's wife
-Maybe promises are better left unsaid-
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*cymbal noise*
He's Very Pretty Too!
The Friend I Finally Met
El
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Brian
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Behind the Camera
...Humming...
Once there was a way to get back homeward,
Once there was a way to get back home,
Sleep pretty darling, do not cry,
And I will sing a lullabye,
Golden slumbers fill your eyes,
Smiles awake you when you rise,
Sleep pretty darling do not cry,
And I will sing a lullabye,
Once there was a way to get back homeward,
Once there was a way to get back home,
Sleep pretty darling do not cry,
And I will sing a lullabye.
If you want me,
Tell me now,
If I could be of any help,
Tell me how,
Let me love you,
Like a friend,
Every little thing is gonna go right in the end.
Well I could hold you too tight,
I could never let you go,
But that wouldn't be right...
I can still recall our last summer,
I still see it all,
Walks along the sand,
Laughing in the rain,
Our last summer,
Memories that we made.
We took the chance, like we were dancing our last dance.
Living is easy with eyes closed,
Misunderstanding all you see.
You were all I never wanted anyhow,
...but I sure want you now...
You may say that I'm a dreamer,
But I'm not the only one.
You're asking me will my love grow,
I don't know, I don't know,
You stick around now it may show,
I don't know, I don't know.
I've seen that road before,
It always leads me here,
Leads me to your door.
When evening shadows and the stars appear,
And there is no one there to dry your tears,
I could hold you for a million years,
To make you feel my love.
Bright are the stars that shine,
Dark is the sky,
I know this love of mine,
Will never die.
You looked my way and said,
"You frustrate me",
Like you're thinking of lines and times,
When you and I were you and me,
I took a chance out on the street,
And I missed my chance and chances are you won't be coming back to me.
There were bells on a hill,
But I never heard them ringing,
No I never heard them at all,
Til there was you,
There were birds in the sky,
But I never saw them winging,
No I never saw them at all,
Til there was you,
And there was music,
And wonderful roses,
They had sent for me,
In sweet fragrent meddows of dawn and dew,
There was love all around,
But I never heard it singing,
No I never heard it all,
Til there was you.
The sun is up,
The sky is blue,
It's beautiful,
And so are you.
Thursday, March 16, 2006
I don't get anything.
I feel like I'm supposed to know exactly how to handle everything that comes my way. I feel like I'm supposed to know how to talk, think, act...and not have the option of people taking it the wrong way. I'm trying to be a really big girl. A really, really big girl...yet I feel so stupid. I feel like I'm not being treated right. I feel like no matter what right I try to do, someone always twists it into another one of my 'selfish acts'. I don't have alterior motives...it's too complicating to do anything like that.
I think everyone thinks that I'm a mind reader. I know I'm not. I think people think that I'm unbreakable, and they can be as mean as they want to me...and I'll be indifferent. I'm not that either. I'm fragile. I'm slowly picking up the pieces of this last month and I keep dropping them. I'm accused of things that I never had any intent to do...I don't believe I did them.
I'm a friendly person. Eveyone who knows me knows that. I don't hang all over people, nor do I try to be clingy. I feel hated. I feel like I did something insanely wrong...something that was all my fault that I didn't even know I did. I'm so hurt right now, not because of the initial loss...but because of the ripple-effect. All I want is a friend. I don't expect anything more than that. I feel like I've been treated badly...when I'm trying so hard to not do anything wrong...
I really want to throw in the towel. I want to say 'okay God, you win'. I'm not seeing any silver lining here. I'm so messed up, confused, and I don't know how I feel half the time. I would kill to be a little kid again. I knew nothing then, and I know too much now.